It won’t be like this always. There will be better days.
(“Always” Jessica Reedy, From the Heart)
These song lyrics have been a source of so much hope for me. When I first heard them my heart melted. I was tired, hurt, resentful, etc. and was so frustrated with my circumstances. I was sick and spent a lot of time alone. The song was a reminder that our circumstances really are temporary. I realized I had already had better days and surely better days would come again.
But what are better days? What do they really consist of? Is it material gain or is it something that happens inside of you? I think the lyrics can mean different things to different people. I have found my best days to be when I have changed, inwardly, when I’ve matured and have found a place of peace, despite what was going on around me. Everything isn’t perfect in my life. I have struggles and issues to work through, but I’m still living in my better day.
Getting to our better days requires a decision. We have to decide to believe in better days and to believe that they are possible. We have to choose to believe that the difficult days prepare us for the better ones. Currently, I’m feeling a lot of things – apprehension, fear, excitement, frustration, etc. My feelings are all over the place and frankly, I don’t always feel like believing in and hoping for the better days. Some times they seem so far away. It would be much easier to give in to my emotions and get lost in where I am and how long it’s taking me to get to where I want to be.
I have to remind myself that where I want to be is really of little importance in the grand scheme of things. Life is so much bigger than me. My purpose and God’s will is so much greater than anything I could imagine or want. It’s nothing wrong with having desires; but there is a reason we can’t see the end. Do we ever consider that maybe we can’t see the end or the way out because it’s too big for our minds? Our tedious, everyday struggles and challenges are preparing us for something so big, so great, so mind-blowing that if we could see it today, we couldn’t handle it. Where I’m going is so amazing because it’s designed by God. I have to be where I am now (and continue moving forward) until I reach the better days.
The interesting thing is that sometimes what was once our Better Day becomes a place that is no longer good enough for us. You know? We pray and God answeres our prayers and then over time we want more. Suddenly, what we wanted isn’t enough. We talk about better days; but have we considered that where we are is a better day? Perhaps it’s enough. I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with wanting more. I want more but I’m challenging myself. How many things do I have that I’ve never asked for? How many desires have already been fulfilled? If I never get anything else, can I truly say that I don’t have enough? The truth is I have things I don’t deserve. I want to see better days; but, God forbid, I forget how good things already are.
The days I live depression free are better days. The days I get to sit up and write, talk and minister to people, giving them hope, are my better days. I’m no longer a victim. I’m no longer a prisoner of my past. I don’t just exist – I thrive. I’ve experienced healing and I have purpose.
What about you? Are you living in a better day? Can you look around and count blessings? Maybe you don’t have everything that you want but can you honestly say that you haven’t been gifted with anything? Even your most difficult experiences have taught you something. Maybe you made relationship mistakes. Maybe you made career mistakes. Did you learn from them? Do you realize that those mistakes, and what you’ve learned from them, have already set the stage for a better day? Your better day is every day you don’t repeat your past. Your better day is every day above ground with opportunities to do better, be better and have better.
I won’t pretend that I’m okay with everything that’s going on in my life. I’m not going to act like have all the answers. But I do know that I have been blessed beyond measure. I do know that my life is nothing like what it used to be. I refuse to forget where I’ve come. I refuse to get lost in my pain and forget all the possibilities of tomorrow. As painful as today might be, it’s already better.