Reflections

When I started my journey of hope and healing, I knew I was in for a ride. It’s been bumpy yet invigorating. There is always another level of growth, healing and discovery. When my pain became my purpose and my mess my ministry, things really got real! The pressure to retreat has been great; but I push forward despite setbacks, disappointment and fear. Continue reading “Reflections”

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An Open Letter to Love

Dear Love,

I’m not sure how long this letter will be. There’s so much I want to say yet so little. The straightforward version would be, “Dear Love, I need you. I want you.

It’s only right, however, that I give you more details. Truthfully, I already have you; it’s just that I need and want you in another way, on another level. I want your romantic version. I want the part of you that’s passionate. I want your butterflies. I want the love that will make me perfect in his eyes. The love that, no matter how much my external being changes, will cause my lover to always see me as beautiful. Love that makes them honor, adore and care for me.  Continue reading “An Open Letter to Love”

What Is Love, Anyway?!

“While some long for an introduction, others take its acquaintance lightly. Love desires to be known and be recognized. However, just as it will never hide, it will never demand our attention. Love waits patiently for an opportunity to enter our lives and shine its light.”

-Melissa E. Hall

Love isn’t designed to be complicated. It isn’t a maze. Either it exists or it doesn’t. Love is kind, gentle, lifts up, celebrates goodness, gives, listens to,  corrects, offers hope, is patient, never hides but seeks to show itself. Love isn’t pretty words; it’s action that will never cause or allow intentional abuse. Love won’t selfishly take, always asking for more and giving little to nothing in return. It won’t leave you empty, but rather, it fills. Continue reading “What Is Love, Anyway?!”

Change

“Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are for what you will become.”
~Shanna D Gregor

I have a physical disability. It’s the kind that if you saw me sitting (presumably not in my wheelchair) you wouldn’t think that there’s anything wrong with me. It started rather gradually and then became aggressive, robbing me of mobility, mental clarity and eventually a job that I loved. I’ve had several years of therapy, many prayers prayed over me, rest and attempts to live a low-stress lifestyle that have contributed to my current level of health. I’m blessed. Continue reading “Change”

Shall we dance?

He approaches me with a grin that is very common on men who are on the prowl. I make a quick decision to entertain him or dismiss the assumed immature pick up line that is soon to follow. It truly amazes me how men in today’s society are completely lacking tact and romance. No brain power or kind efforts are even delivered in most initial approaches. Have women really single-handedly created these monsters?

Some women are lonely and tend to settle for anything men throw their way. Back in the day, women wore their dignity proudly. Today, women are more concerned with “fleeking” out their makeup and weaving it up to gain the most “likes” and whistles. To be honest it appears these women can care less from where the attention comes, just as long as it comes. So they dance and entertain random fools because they are bored or lonely.

There is nothing wrong with being lonely. I myself get lonely at times and find myself entertaining men that are not deserving of my time or energy. The danger in this is cultivating this in your daily life. Dancing with a fool for too long will lead you down a road of disaster and unhappiness. Dancing with a fool may also distract you from accepting a dance from a prince.

We are not doomed if we find ourselves dancing along side the wrong partner. Just don’t stay on the same beat. Quickly change partners even if that partner is yourself. It is ok to be alone. In this time you are exposed to the different layers of yourself. You become more in tune to who you are and what you need versus what you want. Earlier I stated it is ok if you have entertained fools, because there is a lesson to be learned from it. That lesson is usually created to teach you not to settle and introduce you to your worth. Be wise and flow with the process, don’t fight it and get off beat. The best dance is often one that is most emotional and uniquely performed.

So back to this grinning cat who approached me. He walks over to me and asks me to move over. I was blocking his view. The nerve of him!