Thank You

Thanksgiving. This is my all-time favorite holiday. It’s something about spending time with family and friends, over a good meal, laughing and sharing  the moment with gratitude. Continue reading “Thank You”

The Better Days

It won’t be like this always. There will be better days.
(“Always” Jessica Reedy, From the Heart)

These song lyrics have been a source of so much hope for me. When I first heard them my heart melted. I was tired, hurt, resentful, etc. and was so frustrated with my circumstances. I was sick and spent a lot of time alone. The song was a reminder that our circumstances really are temporary. I realized I had already had better days and surely better days would come again.

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God and good friends

I am not thrilled with my new driver’s license photo. However, I noticed a difference in my smiles. The photo on the right was taken in 2013. That morning I cried my eyes out. I was not happy and I was distraught in my current situation. Life was crazy and I did not want to take another breath. I was beyond done with life. But through God’s grace and mercy, He blessed me with dear girlfriends that are tried and true. Continue reading “God and good friends”

You have the power

For me, surviving has been an ongoing process that involves choice, honesty, hope and a support system. With every step of being a survivor, I accrue more strength and determination. I’d like to remind you that we have so much power and influence over the type of life we live. Continue reading “You have the power”

Sometimes you have to fall back

In life we have to make so many decisions – some easy and some hard – but until we master the ability to distinguish between what we want from what others want from/for us we can never make our BEST decisions. We live in a world that is full of demands. There are demands placed on us from our jobs, homes, schools and church families, but I believe our greatest demands come from ourselves and the false ideas of who we should be and what we should be doing or what we should have accomplished by now, etc. There’s always that standard, person or certain reality we measure ourselves by that for some reason seems more important then the person we actually are. We get tricked into disbelieving our own worth and often, without thinking about it, belittle ourselves. Continue reading “Sometimes you have to fall back”

Reflections

When I started my journey of hope and healing, I knew I was in for a ride. It’s been bumpy yet invigorating. There is always another level of growth, healing and discovery. When my pain became my purpose and my mess my ministry, things really got real! The pressure to retreat has been great; but I push forward despite setbacks, disappointment and fear. Continue reading “Reflections”

But It’s Not the Way I Imagined It!

Letting go of our expectations is hard. Detaching ourselves from mental and emotional fantasies is rough. Coming to terms with the reality that what you were so sure would be will not be is more than a notion.  Working to understand that what we hoped for may not be what’s best for us presents us with unbelievable adjustments. However, our career paths, relationship statuses, financial outlook and physical states are very seldom what we planned.

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