Sometimes you have to fall back

In life we have to make so many decisions – some easy and some hard – but until we master the ability to distinguish between what we want from what others want from/for us we can never make our BEST decisions. We live in a world that is full of demands. There are demands placed on us from our jobs, homes, schools and church families, but I believe our greatest demands come from ourselves and the false ideas of who we should be and what we should be doing or what we should have accomplished by now, etc. There’s always that standard, person or certain reality we measure ourselves by that for some reason seems more important then the person we actually are. We get tricked into disbelieving our own worth and often, without thinking about it, belittle ourselves. Continue reading “Sometimes you have to fall back”

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Reflections

When I started my journey of hope and healing, I knew I was in for a ride. It’s been bumpy yet invigorating. There is always another level of growth, healing and discovery. When my pain became my purpose and my mess my ministry, things really got real! The pressure to retreat has been great; but I push forward despite setbacks, disappointment and fear. Continue reading “Reflections”

But It’s Not the Way I Imagined It!

Letting go of our expectations is hard. Detaching ourselves from mental and emotional fantasies is rough. Coming to terms with the reality that what you were so sure would be will not be is more than a notion.  Working to understand that what we hoped for may not be what’s best for us presents us with unbelievable adjustments. However, our career paths, relationship statuses, financial outlook and physical states are very seldom what we planned.

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Refusing to Give Up

Life is crazy! It’s baffling how it can change, literally, in a moment. Disaster, hurt, sickness, unemployment and even loss of loved ones. However, just as quickly there can come hope, healing, strength, security and opportunities to form amazing new relationships. It’s all about sticking it out; staying around; and waiting for the good stuff! Continue reading “Refusing to Give Up”

Change

“Change is the essence of life. Be willing to surrender what you are for what you will become.”
~Shanna D Gregor

I have a physical disability. It’s the kind that if you saw me sitting (presumably not in my wheelchair) you wouldn’t think that there’s anything wrong with me. It started rather gradually and then became aggressive, robbing me of mobility, mental clarity and eventually a job that I loved. I’ve had several years of therapy, many prayers prayed over me, rest and attempts to live a low-stress lifestyle that have contributed to my current level of health. I’m blessed. Continue reading “Change”

Waiting on God…

When people say they are waiting on God 99 percent of the time it is an excuse to stay in their comfort zone. I know. I use to be that person. I sat around for years “waiting on God”. God is not confused or lost, we are. Find your way to the ledge of faith. God is there waiting on you. When you get there smile and take the biggest leap you have never taken before. Trust me. I know, I know Daddy said to trust no man. LOL but this is my testimony so hear me when I say, God will honor your faith leap. He will be right by your side when you jump placing blessing after blessings in your path.

A little story about love…

Love is a very powerful emotion that when used properly it will break chains and mend hearts. I’m sure most of us can recall a few broken hearts and a few warm thoughts of our first love. We anticipate the love from another person and to receive the same love in return. Due to life, love has its ups and downs. The most successful relationships are those who understand the core meaning of love. I’m not a love expert, but I believe love is the ability to give unconditional love. Anything else is not considered love.

In my lifetime I have seen love come and go. My heart was broken a few times and I too broke a few hearts. Through the course of love I have learned to love unconditionally and how to receive love easier than in the past. I first had to love my Creator, who first loved me. In Him I learned to love myself. How can one not love something created by The Most High God? There was a time when I had no idea of how precious His existence was and how precious I am in His eyes. I looked at the worst of me instead of the best of me so it was impossible to see why I was capable of being loved. I realize many people do the same in their relationships. They look at the worst circumstances and all the flaws instead of meditating on the beauty; they meditate on the ugly, which causes love to die. Just think how exciting and peaceful your relationship can be when you focus on the beauty and allow love to grow and mature. Just like any living thing, love needs to be fed or it will starve to death.

Love is a gift not a heavy burden. So, love the one you are with and cherish the beautiful moments. Allow the love to grow and not die. Love yourself in the same manner and watch your life prosper in love. If you find this to become impossible seek the love of God to led you. After all He is the Creator of love and He commands us to love. I’m sure the love He commands of us is not conditional. The more you love the easier it will become to love those who are the hardest to love. Be kind. Be patient. Be gentle. Be love.